I wonder how my life would be right now if I had never of done what my father made me do 4 years ago. How would my life be right now If I was a mother to a 3 year old. I wonder if I would of ever messed up and got into drugs and the wrong crowd and ended up in rehab? Would I be where I am now still or would I be far away from this town. Would my life actually have a meaning if you where still here instead of how it’s been a spiraling disaster. It’s crazy that I still think about what you could of been and what you would of done for me but I will never know what my life would of been like if you where here. But instead you are just a thought in the back of my head or in my dreams of a reality I don’t have.